In the end, after a day of talk. Its still about you. Only you.

sigh. you wanna share with me what happen today. fine i get it. you are pretty excited to share with me. but im being a dick to tell you im tired and stuff. but hello? You dont even have the thinking of telling what you gonna do this and that. end up you just 'im home' and later on blame me for wanting to sleep when you needed me to talk. IN THE END. IT IS STILL ABOUT YOU. i understand where you are coming from. ya tell me stories of your day. happy to share with me. did you even spare a thought of me? No, i dont think so. i dont think you would even bother try to think for me. its 1plus am leh. if im tired. just let me sleep and share with me tomorrow? since when have i say that im disappointed and stuff when you are gonna sleep when i got something to share? no, i never express myself because its just plain stupid?? hello?? i say i will learn to understand you, but not this way please. Its because of this small little things, that you brought up and make a fuss about it. if im tired, let me sleep. if you are tired, i let you sleep. Since when have i tell you im disappointed in how you treat me? now you are telling me is your fault. HAHA. stop making me laugh. 60% that you aint the one saying sorry, rather your friend asked you to do it. but whatever. i cant say its not my fault for saying that im tired and throw you alone while you wanna talk.

in relationship. theres two people. two people with a same goal. to prolong the relationship. to be understanding. to be reasonable. to be willing to give space for each other.

in this relationship. all i see. are, you, you and you. Yes i said i will try to be more understanding to you. im giving in. but i dont see you doing the same thing. whenever we quarrel. you start by saying my fault blah blah blah. im not trying to understand you blah blah blah. Please, like you would try to understand me like that. you dont even. example? today. right now. currently. im being tired waiting from 11plus till like 1plus. when you started "actively" using your phone to talk to me. if i say i tired, wont you let me sleep and share with me tomorrow? by doing that, isnt this quarrel avoidable? instead you keep on going and going and going, then say i dont understand you. i mean, come on. you dont even try. you dont fucking try. im seriously immune. i really give up on you to try and understand me already. In this relationship. is like me being the servant and you being the lady i served. It is, unfortunately a 'dead' relationship to me right now. i love you. i still do. but i just dont expect anything from you right now. from today onwards. and yes i hate to use this word but, im going to 'act' normal even if it kills me.

i give up.

Thoughts

You always say i neglect your feelings, having a bad impression of you. But look at your own actions and reflect on yourself. You said you will do this and that. But no actions. When we switched roles. i told you the same thing and you don't even want me to explain. You just can't be bothered with what i am about to say. Now you expect me to just let it go? Fine, i do not want to stir up troubles again and end up a bad night, though it already is a bad night for me. With YOU being or acting like you care but you don't. Still can say not purposely. I don't know what to say already. Thought no message? Very lazy to see my chat meh. Very difficult to go see meh. And stop using your "forgetful" mind as an excuse. It doesn't matter actually. Since i am really numb. The main thing is that, i am really disappointed and i will never, ever expect much from you anymore. i will still message you even when you don't reply. No worries. I will be normal even if you reply me 12 hours later or so.

"when you are wondering why the unlucky stuffs happen to you, search under a book called 'shit happens'."

LIFE

hello blog. so i decided to write up. its be a shitty 2 years right now. having a r/s or not r/s currently drives me crazy being unable to communicate to the person. IT IS ALWAYS ABOUT YOU. ALWAYS AND ALWAYS. you say you dont wanna explain because of my impression of you. BUT YOU ARE WRONG. IT WAS BECAUSE OF YOUR SICKENING ATTITUDE THAT IS WHY. IF PEOPLE GOT A BAD IMPRESSION ABOUT YOU, SHOULDNT YOU BE EXPLAINING OR DEFEND YOURSELF TO PROVE YOURSELF YOU AINT THAT PERSON?! WHATS MORE I AM/AM NOT YOUR BF. SO ISNT IT MORE RIGHT THAT YOU SHOULD EXPLAIN IT TO ME. GOD DAMMIT. THOUGHT YOU WERE MATURE. BUT I GUESS YOU ARENT.

A LONG POST [[;

Sup young little dudes and ladies ~

i am here again to post despite from being mia from blog for so many months :D
so many days pass i guess ?
Relationships changed friends around getting smaller ? i dont know xD
Was thinking about the past la . haha , old school times .
Hang around with friends , get scolded by teacher together etc .
haha so funny .
Now , nothing much uhs , hanging with same old friends , played basketball , went for jogging and work out and lastly , play guitar :D

Now its December , its Christmas now , what have you guys done ? XD
working ? slacking ? fooling around ? being alone at home ? feel helpless ?
hahas , Sec 1 - 5 . A very meaningful 5 years :D
Somethings that cant be explain in words i guess ?
xD The most funny year is secondary 5 i guess ?
A lot of crap happen
4 to 3 to 2 to none .
hahas ! epic ? not bad xD
and about best friend ... hmm
no worries , we are best friends , its just that , some misunderstanding ? i dont know , that caused us to be drifted ?

This is about you dude !
You see ah . Things between you and me might change but our bonds remains the same .
Its just that things happened so suddenly and it caused both of us to be speechless when we see each other .
haha . its alright if you need a helping hand :D .
Choose your friends and believe them wisely ;D .
 Dont end up like this man . :D
Hope you got a get holidays and find a job soon so you won't be rotting at home . haha
Hope to cya soon ? if you don't mind :D

thats all :D
its a long post ? i guess ? TEE HEE .

ahah , its been AWHILE since i last posted .
Was busy preparing for O levels uhs .
so didn't have much to post too .
study study and study was i had been doing for the past few weeks .
O level starts in two days time .
ahh =.="
wish it could be over soon and i am free ! :D
ahaha

yeah , don't wait for people to approach you , you yourself must learn how to approach people first :D

its been a while since my last post uhs .

Due to prelims and jamming . ;x
ahah , every session was great !! :D
last two weeks was prelim .
it was stressful however , i managed well enough , so , hope everything will be alright ? :D

had steamboat for dinner at saturday (18/9/10)
it was dam fun uhs . jokes around and laughter :D
hope to have a similar session too .! :D
prelims are over , O's Levels coming soon !! D:
wanted it to be over soon but scared of the result D:

oh well , things didn't go pretty for me this year round . -.-"
many shit did happen . argh...

wont be posting till o's level is over ?

till then . ....


we are the Arms-Race™

decided to post after a long period of time .
Went for school for SMB youth run and teacher's day celebration .
the celebration was great . regretted that i didn't went to perform ;x

after the celebration , headed to indoor sports hall and played basketball with slum and gang .
after which went to meet up with drew and adrian to eat . :D
then went to khatib to have tutorial .

reach home around 8+?
ahahs , it was tiring yet fun :D
gonna have jamming tomorrow ^^
feel excited every time when it comes to jamming :D ,
play and sing with a bunch of best friends :D
when its jamming , thats the only 2 hours whereby i can forget everything but to enjoy the session ! :D
Hope tomorrow i could play well as 4 people are coming ;x

thats all :D

bye readers ~